i don't know why... but i think i've lost the interest in writing. in doing alot of things. somehow i just feel very worn out and drained. sleep makes me even more tired than i started out with. i spent today trying to clean up my room and it looks even worse than before i did anything to it.

somehow i don't seem to care much about my promo results anymore. seriously, just get promoted, that's the important thing. why worry about what grade it is? i know i'll be absolutely horrified when i'm in my right mind and i reread this again. but for now, i just don't care. maybe because i don't have high hopes for the results.

thinking about PW again and it really really tires me out. i don't fancy meeting up again to sort through the mistakes in the third draft and working out the oral presentation. feel like dropping off the face of the earth.

i just want to go out or just hang with close friends and listen to their conversations but not contribute much. i just want company right now.

JT: i'm sorry i haven't been spenting time with you. i know it's almost been half a year or more since we last met. but you've been busy, so have i. really sorry about that. yup, i miss your smile, i miss listening to you play the piano (make me jealous on purpose!) and i miss hearing you read out funny bits in the comic books in chinese. miss the wine you use to make me happy happy! bet you sure got gf already right? haha.